Grateful For My Life
I’ve had a rough couple of years, which would explain the lack of writing and the major neglect of my blog. My children left to go and live with their dad, which threw me into a deep depression unlike anything I have ever known. I went to the doctor, seeking help and found out that I am bipolar. This past couple of years, I have been trying to deal with the very real and scary disease, which sometimes has left me hopeless and discouraged. However, I was given a priesthood blessing early on that promised me that I would find a doctor and that his voice would be clear and I would be able to listen to his advice and get the help I needed.
I am finally feeling happy and optimistic again. I am taking medication every day and probably will have to take it the rest of my life, but what a small price to pay for emotional stability! My children still live with their father, but our relationships have become more precious and meaningful. Even my relationship with my ex-husband and his wife have improved to where we all feel comfortable and have a good time visiting with one another when I go to visit the children. And most importantly, my relationship with my husband has improved and I feel like we have a solid, happy marriage. We have a darling daughter, who is now four years old. She is the glue that holds our family together. Without her, I think I probably would have given up and left long ago. I was very ill and couldn’t deal well with any problems of any sort. And, we went through a lot that year. But things seem so much better, now. It’s like the sun has come out after a long winter. Things are brighter. The world seems to be a friendlier place and I feel so glad to be here.
I am grateful for my family. I love my children and my husband’s children and mostly, I love my husband. I know that if we work together, we can get through anything. I am so thankful to be a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. Lately, there have been a lot of strange things being said about “The Mormons”. I can’t believe how crazy some of the things people are saying about us are. The truth is, we love our Savior, Jesus Christ. I know that without my Savior, I would be nothing. He has done everything to bring me back to him. It is my responsibility and my duty to do everything I can for Him because I love Him and because I want to serve Him. I want to be like Him. I know that I will fall short and I won’t measure up to that lofty goal, but I will still try. And with His help, I will succeed in the end!
I feel so blessed to live in a country where I am free to worship the way my heart tells me is right; That I am free to share my beliefs with others. I am grateful to have the things I need to live comfortably. When I see people on TV who have so little, I am reminded of how much I have been blessed with. I have a home, a job, vehicles, food to eat, clothes to wear, and so many luxuries, like hard wood floors and central heating and a dishwasher and a microwave oven. Sometimes, I forget to think about all of the many things I have been blessed with. For so long, I focused on how much pain I was going through and how much I had to suffer. I forgot to look at how much I had been given. I just want to express my gratitude and humility to my Father in Heaven and thank Him for all He has blessed me with.
