The Healing Power of The Comforter
My family dynamics have recently changed dramatically. My three sons have gone to live with their father. This was a very difficult time in my life. I had anticipated that it would be very hard to see them leave, but I had no idea what depths of grief I would experience. My heart aches and longs for them, but I know that they want to live there and I don’t want to stand in their way.
When I was driving home from dropping them off, I didn’t think I could return to the empty home that was waiting for me. I didn’t know how I could face anyone and answer their questions of why I let them go and how I was doing. I felt that my family had crumbled to nothing and that there was nothing to live for. It seemed that every choice before me seemed wrong. I didn’t feel that there was anything I could do to fix the problem and bring my boys home. I felt that I had failed in everything that mattered and that I had no reason to live. I even had thoughts of crashing off the road and ending it all. Thank goodness I had sense enough to know that ending my life would not solve anything and would hurt my children for the rest of their lives.
I prayed earnestly for answers and still my heart ached and I was hurting so badly, feeling that I was trapped in a corner with no way out because of my poor choices and misfortune. There seemed to be no way out and nothing I could do to make it better. I prayed and prayed. I sobbed and cried for days. My husband and my parents were very worried about me. To tell you the truth, I was worried, too. I knew that I was very fragile and irrational and depressed.
Then, after many prayers, something changed inside and I felt at peace. I had asked God to take my sorrow and help me to fix the things in my life that I could not fix. That somehow, he could take this broken situation and make it into something good.
He has done just that. He has taken my broken heart and made it feel alive again. He has given me hope and happiness when I felt I had no reason to be happy. The situation is still the same, but he has given me a new attitude and a new bright hope that things will be all right. He has given me the strength to go on and made the sun shine in my soul.
I praise His Holy Name and thank Him for blessing my life and giving me another chance to make a difference and make my life one that He would be happy with.
You really are the strongest most selfless person I know. I love you so much. I told Aaron that you guys should come visit when Michelle does in Aug. You are always welcome and I’m only 3 hours away. Love you
I love you, too. Thanks for checking out my blog. I would love to come visit.
Hi, I just thought I would say I enjoyed your blog.
I am so glad you get to see your boys. The last time I saw my daughters was in 1988. They were kidnapped by my ex’s family. I cried for years. I have finally put it all in God’s hands and pray i see them soon.
Love n Huggs
Anne Horstman
Anne,
My heart aches for you. I feel selfish for complaining for my small problems. God bless you.